Hi folks.

I probably be back with a lot of more activity soon.
I feel like getting back to more creative stuff.

The last weeks were hard.
I might not pass my math class and so on.

But the most painfull expierence I had is the difference of leaving someone you loved alone and be left alone by someone you love.

Leaving someone alone is easy.
Being left alone not.

I don't know why I write this here, but I have to share this.
2 years ago I left someone who really loved me alone, because it wouldn't work out.
It was the best for us both (he noticed this 1 1/2 years after).
But in the first 6 month he was so hurt. I didn't got this.
i mean it was the best. it would have been much more pain if we stayed.

But yet. Where I am the one who've been left alone.
I totally get his point. You can't accept it.
But you know you have to, because you might lose this person forever.
I lost it. Maybe forever.
And suddenly you don't know the one you loved for years anymore.
It feels like you never knew this person at all.
And you start with questioning your whole relationship.
And then you go. searching for answers. With an unfair flair you go to this person. And you will ask him or her. And the person will take this totally wrong. And know you are in a circle you can't escape anymore. Most of the time.
But it's not that. While you do this the person will think the same. Why you changed so much? And if you are honestly. You changed,too. Fear changed you.
And then you realize: It's your time to go. No matter how much it will hurt. You'll see what the future brings. Most of the time People see each other twice in live. And belive it. It will be better than. And when not? Well than it shouldn't had been.

But it isn't bad at all.
You might take great expirence out of it.
So if you ever feel this way. Don't regret.
Never regret anything.
Because you are just yourself.
No matter if you are shy, an asshole or you stuck too much.
People will love you for what you are.
But you have to stay yourself.


So. you see. Leaving someone is easy.
Being left alone: Not.

We will see us soon.
I hope with new work.
candy.